Charlie Brown Tree

First I must explain my tree

When we got married over 9 years ago My mother bought me a Martha Stewart Christmas tree.

It was full and was pre lit. When we moved to Utah we left the tree in Idaho. I was heart broken over such a thing. My tree was the first tree for our children it was the first tree for our family.

So with sadness I asked my husband to buy me a new tree.

So the new tree looked like a Charlie Brown tree un loved and empty..

I thought how am I going to make this tree look as my tree in the past.

I grabbed my decorations and got to work

It started to look like my old tree..Beautiful and full of new memories to come

I thought how silly I was to think that a Charlie Brown Tree could not look andy better than what it had.

Then it hit me something so profound

We have to look at the beauty with in

We have to look past our flaws

we have to learn how to accept those who are different

We have to be grateful and live like everyday is a blessing.

I am grateful for my Charlie Brown Tree

I know I could always have a better tree

But would that bigger better tree make me more happy?

Does that tree say LOOK What she has???

It does not matter what you have it does not DEFINE

who you are ...

Happy Holidays

Posh

Posh by LIviaJay featuring a vintage jacket

This Door Was Closed

This door was closed! It was shoved to the back of my mind to never have to open it again. Why does this door have to open? Maybe I still have more to learn. Maybe I need to grow I am not sure what to think of this door. I want to keep it closed I want it to fly away .

this is my door for the year I will not live in fear. I will not run and hide from it. I will be strong and BRAVE.. I have done this before I have gone through this ... I know I can do this...even if this door takes me to a place I don't want to be.

I will follow this path that God knows what I need. He is with me , He never will leave my side. this door has reopened .. I am okay with change I am okay with what is behind the door . I will be blogging everyday when I can say more about the door. But as of right now this door is opened .. it will stay open ..I will write how I feel and what bugs me.. I will be honest and share my heart.

I felt this picture showed a bit of what is to come ... if you look close you can figure it out..

October

I felt I needed to write today.

October is one of my favorite months

the cold air is blowing and and the weather is changing

and of course BOISE STATE FOOTBALL...

I just finished another round of classes Adobe Flash CS4 and English 101

this time around I got so stressed out and tired with an overload of homework

I may have panicked. I got a stress induced cold that caused me to be sick during my finals' week.

I am finally feeling about 85% better and start my new classes on monday

so I get the rest of the weekend to relax and not stress out...

I did make the Deans list and have worked so hard to be on it.

I know I keep saying how I am going to create amazing things, but my life is super busy and crazy for the time being. I am hoping I will work on some fun things this next week

today was the first day I have scraped booked in a long time and I was putting together a few kit I had from IU that I never got to put together..

It was nice to just cut and glue

I miss that

I miss sewing

I will be sewing PJ pants for my youngest

I had to cut up his old ones because he wore them so much

the were not washable..so I had to cut them off of him

so now I must sew him new ones

Lucky I had some fabric I bought a long time ago that is perfect for PJ's

Utah is growing on me but I still miss home

I always will..

I will make sure I try not to post every 4 weeks

but thats where I am at right now

I will be better

The End of Math

I and took my final passed .... I got 89% and my final grade for math was an 96%. Math is tough But I worked really hard and it payed off.

I am going to transfer to a better school in October ...

I want my Bachelor's degree and I want to learn as much as I can

so I will be attending an school that specializes in ART. Now I am not saying my school that I am at is not good it is but I need more ..

So I am excited

I am going to work on my etsy shop and create fun stuff for it I just have been crazy busy ...

with school

Not much else except that the rain is coming and finally a break from the heat

I am not a heat girl I love the snow

I could live in the Antarctica

(Only people don't live there)

so hopefully some cool fall weather is coming I love October ( I know it's a month away but I am still excited)

I am doing better at updating

hope someone is reading my blog out there

So Much

I am tiring to update ( I am getting somewhat better)

I am finishing 2 classes this week My math class and my packaging design class

Math has been tricky and I have worked super hard hard

today we have our final and I am nervous ( I tend to not test well)

So I am bringing my headphones to tune out other noise and then

focusing on my test.

Packing design is a blast I will post a picture after I mock it up

I love design

gotta run and get the kids off to school

Wow

So I have to many ideas swirling in my head ...

I am over inspired by many things

I am overwhelmed with school and family

My life feels very unorganized

I want to scream and shout

I don't want be over everything

I want to relax ... and I can't

I want my brain to shut down

I want peace ..

Maybe I am asking to much

maybe I am missing an important lesson

I am not sure

I want to blog every day

I want to put fun projects on this blog

In the words of my brother " I want a Ompaluma NOW!"

He tells me this when I want to much maybe I will start

with every other day and try to start small and work my way up

to bloging ever day .

I am going to try harder

Also IDAHO friends and my otherBRAVE friends I miss you all very much

I hope you are well and keeping in touch LOVE you all...

xoxox

ME

Blogging

Okay so I am blogging today about up keeping my blog. I am going to try to post something new every day . I will at least post one or two photo's with my amazing photoshop skills . ( I am not great with my point and shoot camera , and my other camera is in a glass case at target ).

I am going to have tutorials on my crazy crafty projects. I have fun ideas to save you money .

so stay tuned for awesome ideas and fun fun stuff on my blog ...

Pants

I am sure life is full of humor and sometimes you forget the simple things.

today I got a phone call from our youngest and he said " Mom my capri sun exploded in my back pack " I'm think opps! then he tells me that I need to bring him clean pants because it got all over him.

so I am laughing so hard because a few days before he had tripped on his pants and fell and told S. that he needed to sell them because he kept tripping on them.

so Maybe some pre planning ?

I love how children come up with some of the funniest things. When things go bad you have to think of the funny things .

So I have had a great laugh this morning .

JUst Want to scream

Ever had a month where everything goes wrong? Well this month is our month .. I know there is a reason for everything and that there is a plan. I should not complain because we have a job a house and everything we need . But it has been a tough month.

this morning Hub. got up for work and his work car had been towed . Let me explain some jerk parked in our assigned spot with our house number on it . Can they not read ? I am sure this is minor but what if we lost our job because his work rig got towed or he would not be allowed to drive it home any more. I know I know lots of what if 's . It just was the icing on the cake what else could happen ?

I really don't want to know .. I will say this, God know's he is giving us what we can handle and I am sure he is testing how faithful we will be during times of trial's . I know he loves us and know how much we need to learn new things and trust in him . He is there and I know he has heard our prayer's . Not just for our family but for families who are deal with much worse trials.

He hears our pleads and listens and is there for us when we truly need him.

I know that next month could get worse but I have to trust in God that there is a true plan and I will be ready tears and all for what ever he gives us next.

Mothers Day

i had to write about my sweet Mother's day gift's . They did not cost anything they were colored and written on. First was the my oldest son who had a school program and sang a song . The best part is his class all had to write their mom's a poem and mine said I was righteous .

I was so shocked because I don't think I realized how having family home evening , reading our scriptures and praying as a family would have such a great payoff.

I am so grateful for my faith in God and how our boys are growing in the gospel and understanding it .

the second gift was a simple book from the youngest and he had wrote in his little hand writing how much he loved me. IF I Had a dream car it would be lime green . I loved this .

My family did not buy me anything or take me to dinner but they gave me the greatest gifts.

Their LOVE!!!

I know how much they love me and worry about me when I am sad or sick . I cherish my family and love them so much .

Hubby gave me the gift of taking care of my sun burn ( yes I got some sun in Idaho and it made me sick ) .

So I think this was the best mothers day OH and the best part we traveled from Utah to Idaho and the boys slept on the way home so I kind-of got a bonus gift .

IKE

Moving Day

I made time to blog HA! Well I am waiting oh how I am not patient. Hubby went to pick up the trailer and truck and now is helping his dad get a skunk out of the water pipe outside. Hubby's words to me were "I might stink when I get home" . I'm think this should be fun .

Anyhow today is my last day at one of my favorite houses that I have lived in and I now it's time to explore the wilderness in Utah woohooo.

I will always be an Idaho Girl and will love all my friends that live there. Thank you for all your caring and love I will miss you .... OH I have not cried yet so I think I am doing well I about teared up last night and a close friend said your not moving your going on vacation. I thought wow what a great way to think of it ....

Utah is a permanent move so it's like a really big vacation I never leave.

anyhow I better get the MOVE on

4 more days

HOLY cow... It's four days till we move to Utah . I am so excited and sad at the same time I think I am like a roller coaster and my mood changes depending on who I am talking to . I just found out a friend of mine is moving to Utah too so I am happy that I will know one more person. We fond a town home and it's cute and I am looking forward to decorating it . I have an idea for the master bedroom and I think it will be beautiful . I am still debating the colors , our bed is in a khaki color and it's fancy . I am wanting to paint the accent furnishing's to give the room color and I can't decide ( rustic pink, olive green, dutch blue ) I am not sure yet I'll have to wait and see what the room looks like. OH I have only seen the pictures my hubby went and saw it and finally liked something. I had sent him to so many houses and I am glad he finally picked something. I did not find this one he did and he liked the area.

So I have not posted any art for awhile but I have a few works in progress and I have this one it's older but I did a dreams art journal and I did it in a mini style .

I am working on a secret project and you'l find out more after this crazy move .

OH yes if you have not heard Adobe CS5 preview came and I am excited because no more codes when blogging . There are lots of great new features and you can check it out on their web site.

have a great week

Lots of CRAZIENESS

Well first off we are moving .... hubby got a job only being home 3days it's so great. The sad part is that we will be moving out of state . We have lived in Idaho for our whole lives and now we will be relocating to Beautiful Utah .

I am scared and sad , But I will live anywhere my sweetheart is . We spent the last year apart and I am ready to be with him . The boys are excited but I think they think we are going to live at Lagoon all summer . so I am crazy busy with the boys , School , teaching creative classes , and packing up our lives.

Today I ran/walked four 1/2 miles I have not run since my last post and felt it today. I really needed it to clear my mind for while and feel free. It is a good thing to let loose but not all the time. I walk outside my house and the "for rent " sign was up .. I had a huge pit in my heart hurt my mom was standing there with me and she sat in her car and cried . I feel for her we are so close .

She is trying to find a job in Utah and I really am praying for her so she will not be alone . I will miss all my Idaho Girls and will visit as much as we can .

I love Idaho but I am excited for a new adventure and a new place it should be fun.

so thats about it for today ... I am having to pack up my crafty stuff and it's hard . But it's nice to de clutter our life.

2 mile run

This is my update on how my training is going .. Well because of last week's crazy ness i did not run until yesterday . I thought for sure my mile would be a 12 min. one. NOPE I ran in 18 min, 2 miles that is a 9 min mile I am almost to my goal of an 8. Plus it was really windy out yesterday so I wonder if maybe if there was not wind I could have ran a 8 in a half min mile.

Oh yes next week is so exciting hubby will be home for GOOD!!!!

I am so excited I can't stand it , A little nervous I have to get used to sharing our bathroom . and for the last two weeks I have not used his side I have been training myself. The bed has never been an issue I like my side and usually there have been tons of pillows on his side.

So I am getting ready for my next week and getting the house ready and myself ..( I've got to look so good lol)

Lots to do and some projects I am working on I will post tomorrow one of them if it gets finished and if it does not then I will post some of it.

He Hear's Us

I have to post this !

how great full I am to my heavenly father he heard me today. he hears me every day but today he knew how bad I needed him.

I was driving home from swimming lessons and my car was kind-of acting weird so at the stop light I thought I need to restart my car ( BAD choice) my car stop and did not start back up I had two people drive around me before someone helped my put it in neutral and pull it to the side. Best part is that I was less than a mile from home. I keep thinking why could my car not just die at home. well the guy who helped then asked me if I had someone to call and sadly I had to umm NO ( hubby is over seas). so to my surprise a member of my church had pulled over and saw it was me and took me and the boys home.

then I got a call which lead to to tears and I thought wow 10 days and hubby is home why all this now ... oh and earlier I found out I am forbidden to eat anything that is not natural . I can not eat processed food at all and no dairy . But I am okay with that.

So God sent me someone I knew to rescue me and my boys. He said it will be okay don't freak out. He knew I needed him and he was there. He heard my quiet prayer of help me I do not know what to do I felt like a little girl lost in the mall who can't find her way.

I feel so love by my heavenly father that he has not left my side in the last year he has kept me strong in times of fear and pain. He helped me find true beauty in things and people.. He has been there when i felt I had no one else. i am so glad that I had him in my life and he watches over my family .

he really does know when we need him the most and when we need him a little but I know one thing for sure is that he will never leave us comfortless he is always with us.

Am I CRAZY???

Robie Creek is the toughest 1/2 marathon in the northwest and I am RUNNING it !

I have done this race in the past and have loved the challenge of it . The trail is beautiful and quiet . I always have time to think and last year i guess they changed the rules for ipods but now you can have them back. I am really excited this summer I was running about an 8 min. mile and 9 back to 8.. today I ran 10 and 10 so I need to speed up and get into gear. I am really excited my goal is to beat my last time which was in 2008 i ran and walked in 3:30. This years goal is 3:00 if I beat it in the 2:40's I would be really excited . I am going to just focus on my time not how fast anyone else is running. There are some power houses in this race I think one year a girl finished in 1:30 and that's fast, the incline is pretty steep. I don't want to run that fast I want to run for me and for my health and for the pure challenge of this awesome race. The best part is I got in this afternoon and it's only open to so many racers. so cheer me on it's not till april But I am going to post my progress . OH yeah I will be posting more art and projects that I have been inspired to make so stay tuned. One more thing to add Thank you L you know who you are. thanks for the awesome birthday present ( two bird that will never die!) I love them and of course YOU KNOW WHY! love you guys ...